It reminds me of the happy times we once had and now he is having those same happy times with someone else. And that hurts.
His gf is actually a really nice girl. I really would like to get to know her. Have chats with her and actually see them happily together in person. I want what's best for him and I want to see him happy. So why is it that I have to avoid her? This is so stupid. I want to be able to meet her and get to know her like a normal friend and witness how happy and sweet they are. But I can't. It will just hurt me more. This is just so ridiculous!!! Why can't I see my friend be happy. Why do I have to hide?? I don't want to hide but that is my only choice. I want to hear about all the happy things they are doing together. But instead I have to get him to not talk about her. It feels hard on him. As I can feel he wants to share all his happy times with me but he can't. Seeing him happy will actually get me sad. This is so ironic. So unfair. But I guess that's life.
Can't think of any task today. It's the start of my holidays. And guess it's the start of my do nothing few weeks. So guess I'll just sleep. Nothing else to do! Oh well.....
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