Delete

I ended up crying all night and this morning. I was suppose to head to a party last night but I was really really sick. So I had to stay at home. Home alone is worse as more spare time to cry. Still stayed in bed today. Nothing to do. But I'd rather get better so I better be good and have lots of rest.

I ended up deleting his contacts from my address book. I burst into tears when I saw his name online? Why did I cry over that? So bizzare!!! Today I realised what it was. I was so use to whenever I saw his name online in a few seconds I get a message from him. But now I am ignored. He has other things he'd rather do. He has other people he'd rather contact. And I think that is what is hurting me.

I hope deletling his contacts would be good. I wont know when he is on or not and wont see his name popping up all the time. I'll need to see what other things I need to delete!!! I'd gradually find them. Whenever I cry I will try and find the source. And will think of something to fix it! I will be ok. Just takes time!