Sad again

I feel terrible again! All his fault. Why did he contact me? I was happy on my own. Then he ruined it.... now back to square one! Yes crying again..... will this ever stop!!!! I hate it.... just want to get on with life!

So why am I sad? Maybe because I was trying to forget about him and now he appears again and our times together flash back? So I get the feeling of wanting him back. But he wont come back. So I'm sad.