Call

I woke up this morning and the first thing I wanted to do was call him. I wanted to hear his voice again. A voice I now feel I haven't heard for so long. A voice I really miss. But I can't call him. I can't contact him. Will I cope with this no contact. I'm sure I will. But in what state I'm not sure.

I've tried so hard to stop myself from thinking about him but I can't. He keeps popping into my mind. Time has still done nothing. The feeling is still as strong as before. I feel like I just want to give him a big big hug. A wish that can now never come true anymore.

Yes the past holidays I have had so much fun. But I realised all that fun doesn't beat spending a day with him instead. Even a chat on the phone with him will feel more than a fun day out. I really do miss him. Time has told me I cant live without him. But he is gone. His heart is now with someone else.  I just have to learn to live without him.

This song came up and I think is so appropriate to me right now. This song is dedicated to you baby!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jckKmsCsmio