Love

Talk about timing. He wrote to me again right after I posted my last post. This time I actually felt happy receiving it. But after a short happiness it mad me feel sad again. Made me miss him again. Just the fact that I felt happy receiving his email means I miss it.

I really enjoy his company. And now knowing for a fact that I won't have that company anymore really really hurts. As I now know I truly miss him, hence I must still love him so so much! :(

I guess love is a very weird thing. I can't have him anymore. Now I truly do feel I just want to see him happy. And I hope he is. I found I dont hate him anymore. I found I still love him and I dont think that feeling will ever change.

I have tried so hard these few month to not love him anymore but I just can't. So guess I can't stop myself from loving someone so I'll just continue. Continuing loving him one sided. Continue hoping the best of everything for him. Continue being there for him if he ever needs me.

I don't need him to return any love. I'll just continuing giving him my true love as that is what I feel. He doesn't need to know. Loving someone doesnt mean you have to own them.

I truly hope his current gf is being really nice to him. He sounds really happy and I hope he continues to be happy forever!