Thinking

First day back at work. Been sick for a few days and house bound. So I decided to walk to work and finally do some exercise and move for a change.

The weather is nice and all I am thinking was how nice it would be if I could finish work and just meet up with him and do something together. Anything really. But cant. And I fell sad. I want to say, lets see a movie, lets go to the beach. Just hang out like friends do. But I cant. If I see him alone I will miss him more. So I better just keep thinking and no action. He wont want to see me anyway. He will have plans already with his gf.

How can I stop thinking about him. I dont know how. I'll keep trying but nothing is helping me right now.